Woes of a Single Mom
Ok, first I want to acknowledge that this is nothing compared to ACTUALLY being a single mom...Really wouldn't want to trivialize someone else's woes!
But, our...Let me rephrase that, my Pao Pao is no longer a woman. I took her in last night and this morning they removed or tied or snipped whatever it was they needed to remove or tie or snip to keep me from having Grandpuppies. She must stay in for 3 days, and it was heartwrenching to see her. I left work earlier so that I could get in during visiting hours. James happened to be there too. She was in pretty good spirits considering what she has gone through today, and definitely happy to see us. It was horrid having to leave her though. Eventually James and I had to walk away cause she wasn't going anywhere with that lady.
It was a little awkward with James...But not too bad. I think that both of us are realizing that we need to step back to get over this. Constant contact and communication with someone you still love begs the question...Why are we apart?
I was glad that he went to see her. He and I had not seen each other since Monday when he made it clear that he wanted no responsibilities or expectations when it came to Pao Pao. Apparently she is not his dog. Came as a bit of a surprise, and a big disappointment. She has been SO INCREDIBLY mopey and down since he moved out. It is to the point that it's not just me that notices it....He and I work such different schedules that he could come see her almost daily and never have to cross paths with me...
On the other hand, I understand that it is probably not easy to walk away from a life. I know I would not enjoy having to come back here to VISIT my dog, house, ex-girlfriend and former bubble members...He is trying to start anew, and doing what he has to do. It just makes me sad that it is Pao Pao sitting up on the roof by herself for hours on end. It is almost annoying how much she loves him...Just the sound of his bike driving up, or him climbing the stairs and she perks up.
It will all sort itself out. Pao Pao gets more love and attention than most dogs...Especially Taiwanese dogs. God, imagine this site if this was an actual child. I would be a basket case!!!
But, our...Let me rephrase that, my Pao Pao is no longer a woman. I took her in last night and this morning they removed or tied or snipped whatever it was they needed to remove or tie or snip to keep me from having Grandpuppies. She must stay in for 3 days, and it was heartwrenching to see her. I left work earlier so that I could get in during visiting hours. James happened to be there too. She was in pretty good spirits considering what she has gone through today, and definitely happy to see us. It was horrid having to leave her though. Eventually James and I had to walk away cause she wasn't going anywhere with that lady.
It was a little awkward with James...But not too bad. I think that both of us are realizing that we need to step back to get over this. Constant contact and communication with someone you still love begs the question...Why are we apart?
I was glad that he went to see her. He and I had not seen each other since Monday when he made it clear that he wanted no responsibilities or expectations when it came to Pao Pao. Apparently she is not his dog. Came as a bit of a surprise, and a big disappointment. She has been SO INCREDIBLY mopey and down since he moved out. It is to the point that it's not just me that notices it....He and I work such different schedules that he could come see her almost daily and never have to cross paths with me...
On the other hand, I understand that it is probably not easy to walk away from a life. I know I would not enjoy having to come back here to VISIT my dog, house, ex-girlfriend and former bubble members...He is trying to start anew, and doing what he has to do. It just makes me sad that it is Pao Pao sitting up on the roof by herself for hours on end. It is almost annoying how much she loves him...Just the sound of his bike driving up, or him climbing the stairs and she perks up.
It will all sort itself out. Pao Pao gets more love and attention than most dogs...Especially Taiwanese dogs. God, imagine this site if this was an actual child. I would be a basket case!!!
posted by Ang @ 10:45 p.m.
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