First impressions

Home?
Jet Lag
Tired
Hot
Excited
PAO PAO!!
Puppy Love!

Confused
Suspicious
Guilty?
Angry
Sad
Relieved?

A wealth of emotions, and I can't really elaborate until I look at the situation with clearer focus.

I can only say that my heart is racing, and there may be some emotional posts later.

Right now I am completely alone. I used to embrace this feeling, and now it makes me sick. It was good for me back in Canada, because you get used to having someone around, and I don't just mean a boyfriend or girlfriend, and you forget what you are capable of doing on your own. The truly alone can be a scary place, I mean, look at how many of us are seeking contact with strangers and invisibles in this very forum. When I traveled in Europe I had some experiences that left me feeling completely isolated. Now that I look back on them I feel empowered by them in a way that I haven't felt in a long time.

Maybe it is good that Leah is not here for all this, maybe I need to prove to myself that I am still 10 feet tall and undefeatable. Maybe I am sleep deprived, jet lagged, homesick, culture shocked and making a 2 hour feature drama out of a mere half hour after school special, I'll let you know!